|so everyone knows...
||[Jul. 20th, 2006|03:12 am]
life right now is upside down. i either have to laugh at the universe or cry or some of both. right now i'm wound up so tight that i feel like i want to burst. I want to swim a mile to get rid of this feeling and yet have no energy.
my grandpa finally got out of the hospital on sunday. He now can barely walk or get around, but he is no longer 75 pounds. He's back to being as stubborn as normal, which is driving my parents nuts. he will only accept the bare minimum of help from outside ppl. I understand that feeling, but i think my grandparents could really use it.
work is long, time consuming, and tiring. i hate it, but it is only for another few weeks.
my cat is prob. going to die. she's very, very sick. all i can do is curl up with my teddy bear and cry until i have no more tears to shed. I can't do anything, i can't even hold her because i'm up here. i don't know which is worse, having her die now or having to make the disition to put her to sleep later. It hurts so much!! she got me though so of the hardest years of my life when all i wanted to do was die. she would purr me to sleep